Jennette McCurdy

In her memoir titled "I'm Glad My Mom Died," McCurdy recalled a man referred to as "The Creator" making her even more nervous while filming.

I want my first kiss to be a real first kiss, not a kiss for a TV show." "You try to just go with it, and if you're Nathan, my costar, it seems like you can," she wrote. "'That was not ideal but FINE, we'll move on. "Our lips touch. Finally, he speaks." In her memoir, McCurdy said that the scene marked her first kiss, both on screen and in real life. Because of her lack of experience, McCurdy found filming to be nerve-racking. "My mind is saying who cares that this is your first kiss, that your first kiss is on-camera. "Our lips are touching," McCurdy recalled. I can smell his hair gel." "He's moving his mouth around a bit, but I can't move mine. The moment happened after both of them revealed that they hadn't kissed anyone before and decided to get it over with.

In her new memoir, the television star opens up about her harrowing upbringing, life as a Disney star, and how, after the death of her mother, ...

For example, any time I would be like, “I need to do something for self-care,” I’d do the thing that everybody does, and I’d Google “self-care tips.” And it’s always like, “Draw a bubble bath. I remember my eating-disorder therapist at the time said how difficult it is to maintain recovery, and I have maintained recovery. And that’s kind of the way that I’m trying to find peace with it now is to try and appreciate what it did for other people and the value that it brought to their lives. I need to feel that my identity as me, as who I am authentically, and not as a vessel for my mom’s needs or a vessel for my character’s needs or a vessel for this network’s needs. I think even walking in a therapist’s office would have been impossible because the second she found out that I was in therapy, I believe she would have found a way to put an end to that and to make sure that that didn’t continue because she would have been terrified of “What are you saying about me?” and “How dare you!” It would have just been more chaos and more of that drama. JM: I love the topic of self-care because I think it’s so nuanced, and I think it’s so often not really explored with much nuance. SN: I’d like to touch on mental health a little bit, and with everything you described in the book, I know this is super-important to you as well. That is not unintentional, but I also think that it’s a title that I hoped to earn in the writing, and I hope that anyone who reads it feels that I did earn it. So, I wanted to keep it as grounded and as rooted in the moment, and in my mentality of the moment, as possible. SN: Having read the book, it’s clear that your past work is tough for you to think about. I believe that I would have recognized the abuse. His name is Sean Manning, and he was so supportive of the voice of the book, the tone of the book, the title of the book, and the cover of the book.

She was a child star on shows like "iCarly" and "Sam & Cat," but McCurdy tells Newsweek that with success came life-threatening sickness.

But I had this moment where I'm sitting there going, "I don't want to be this in 10 years, I don't want to be this in 15 years." So I absolutely never would have dipped my toe in that water had I not done a lot of soul searching privately. There was even a time in my life when a therapist suggested that I try implementing some more boundaries, and I said, "What is a boundary?" I think what was definitely difficult for me to recognize was that the fame piece wasn't normal, because you're also so engaged in the life that's happening to you at that moment. And through writing the book, I was able to grieve in the very simple way where I can miss her now, and it's just that I can just miss her, and it's not "well, she doesn't deserve me to miss her." Scott: For anyone who talks, or does storytelling, or acts for a living, boundaries are a difficult area, because so much of what we do in our work is based on our life and sharing a part of ourselves in a way, right? There was a time in my life when I did not know what a boundary was. And I truly think it's only because of writing, and maybe the attempt at closure, that it was. I would feel angry that I felt grief, because I felt she didn't deserve my grief and I think she abused me. And then I think there was also an element of just trusting that the right people would connect with the material. And I think that anybody who reads the book—I hope that anybody who reads the book, by the end of it, will understand why I've chosen that title and be on board with the title. I did feel that a bit, you know, through the process of writing the book.

So I have to turn down movies while Ariana's off whistle-toning at the Billboard Music Awards? Fuck. This.”

- The K-Fed tell-all will no longer air in full as it’s “too hurtful,” according to the journalist who secured the exclusive. “Ariana came whistle-toning in with excitement because she had spent the previous evening playing charades at Tom Hanks’s house,” McCurdy recalls. McCurdy writes that she was raised in what she deems “Garbage Grove” with an abusive mother who tirelessly sought fame by any means necessary, yet couldn’t afford rent and utility bills. “The week where I was told Ariana would not be here at all, and that they would write around her absence this episode by having her character be locked in a box. “So I have to turn down movies while Ariana’s off whistle-toning at the Billboard Music Awards? Fuck. This.” Ope! “If I wasn’t such a good sport to begin with, I wouldn’t be in this predicament in the first place.

Jennette McCurdy, who writes that she experienced abuse from her late mom, Debra, stands by her decision to name her memoir “I'm Glad My Mom Died.”

“But now that I have it, I realize that she’s happy and I’m not. I wanted her to be happy,” she wrote. “I usually just try and think of Disneyland when Mom’s doing the exams… McCurdy alleged that when a doctor expressed that she may have had anorexia, her mom denied knowing about any food habits. “I felt like she didn’t deserve my tears and my sadness since she was abusive, but it simplified in a really relieving way and now feels like I’m able to just miss her. We’re keeping me on a 1,000-calorie diet, but I have the smart idea that if I only eat half my food, I’ll only be receiving half the calories, which means that I will be shrinking twice as fast,” McCurdy wrote in her tome ( via ET).

Jennette McCurdy appeared next to Ariana Grande in Nickelodeon's Sam & Cat. In her new book, I'm Glad My Mom Died, the actress opens up about working with ...

Instead, the 30-year-old actress was meant to take the lead in a show playing the same character (Sam Puckett), but with a storyline that held more substance. And after finding out that Ari was granted a week off from filming to attend an award show, McCurdy revealed how it made her feel. she wrote in her book.

Of course, Jennette came to fame playing Sam Puckett on iCarly, appearing on all six seasons plus a spinoff series. But when it came time for a reboot, she ...

There might be a way for me to act from a place that feels really healing and empowered, maybe write something for myself.'" "I am shocked to be saying — have you ever had one of those thoughts where it’s like, 'Oh where did that come from? Two seasons of the iCarly reboot later, it doesn't seem that Jennette has changed her mind about returning to the show.

Jennette McCurdy rose to fame in 2007 in Nickelodeon's iCarly, playing the role of Carly's rebellious best friend, Sam Puckett.

Then, when she got her first period, she began to return to her disordered ways, while her mother continued to insult her body shape and weight. On the advice of her mom, McCurdy said she began restricting her calorie intake to prevent her breasts from getting bigger. Soon after her mom's death, she went out for dinner with friends where she ate a full meal and drank a whole bottle of sake. Elsewhere in a memoir, McCurdy spoke fondly of her close friendship with Cosgrove. As a result, McCurdy stated she had to work around Grande's schedule and missed out on other work, while Grande was able to miss a whole week of filming to attend an awards ceremony. Every time something exciting happens to her, I feel like she robbed me of having that experience myself." She is also working on some other film & TV projects which have not yet been announced." I would choose to never do anything like it again." She then went on to star alongside future Grammy-winner Ariana Grande in the spin-off Sam & Cat in 2013. She insisted that was not the case. Jealous of her," she continued. I wouldn't be on the s**tty show saying these s**tty lines on this s**tty set with this s**tty hairstyle," she added.

Jennette McCurdy opens up to Teen Vogue in an interview about grief, her mom's abuse, and her friendships with Ariana Grande and Miranda Cosgrove.

After undergoing six years of therapy to unpack the impact that her late mother has had on her life, McCurdy, now 30, is ready to tell her story on her own terms. Born and raised in Southern California in a poor, Mormon family, Jennette McCurdy was just six years old when Debra, who had dreamed of becoming an actor herself, projected her own unrealized aspirations onto her only daughter. “I feel strongly that anybody who has experienced abuse from a parental figure will know what I’m talking about.”

Nickelodeon is offering me three hundred thousand dollars in hush money to not talk publicly about my experience on the show?" the actor writes in her new ...

“My body is saying no, I don't want this,” she details. She continues: “My shoulders do have a lot of knots in them, but I don’t want The Creator to be the one rubbing them out. Unflinching. My body is rejecting my mind,” she writes. Jennette claims that her former boss, whom she doesn’t name, got in trouble with the network for “accusations of his emotional abuse.” Moreover, Jennette recalls feeling uneasy when “The Creator” once gave her a shoulder massage without asking her. So much so, in fact, that when Jennette — unhappily — landed her huge role on Nickelodeon’s iCarly at the age of 15, Debra was thrilled.

Centered around the abuse McCurdy suffered from her mother, and the treatment of child stars at Nickelodeon, the actress' new book soars to the top of the ...

At Nickelodeon, “The Creator” (who is likely iCarly’s creator and producer, Dan Schneider) pressured McCurdy to wear bikinis, drink alcohol before she was of legal drinking age, and massaged her without consent. “So I have to turn down movies while Ariana’s off whistle-toning at the Billboard Music Awards? Fuck. This,” writes McCurdy. Jennette McCurdy’s new memoir is a barrage of bombshells, beginning with its title: I’m Glad My Mom Died. And people are taking notice, as the book soared to #4 on Amazon’s best-seller charts (and #2 in memoirs), before the physical copy sold out on Amazon altogether.

Grande's pop star career started taking off during the filming of the show, which only ran for a single season on Nickelodeon. McCurdy writes that she grew to ...

“That was the moment I broke,” McCurdy writes. “I’m Glad My Mom Died” is now available for purchase and has already topped the Amazon bestseller list. McCurdy adds that from that moment on “I didn’t like her. McCurdy continues, “Ariana is at the stage in her career where she’s popping up on every 30 Under 30 list that exists. “So I have to turn down movies while Ariana’s off whistle-toning at the Billboard Music Awards? Fuck. This.” “The week where I was told Ariana would not be here at all, and that they would write around her absence this episode by having her character be locked in a box.

Nickelodeon star Jennette McCurdy discusses her controversial relationship with co-star Ariana Grande and Tom Hanks even came up.

In fact, the star revealed the true feelings she had about her Sam and Cat co-star Ariana Grande during the filming of the show. While filming Sam and Cat, Ariana Grande was becoming an increasingly famous pop star. Former Nickelodeon star Jennette McCurdy has been opening up about myriad topics in recent weeks as part of press for her memoir I’m Glad My Mom Died, but the latest may be a doozy for Nickelodeon fans.

Jennette McCurdy is letting it all out through her new 'I'm Glad my Mother Died' book, she has been making revelation after revelation from her time at ...

In her book, she made sure that the reader was aware she was fuming at Grande for having a bigger star status then she had at the time. It was during one of these times after getting denied to attend an audition that Ariana Grande was allowed to skip filming. Although, Ariana Grande still is a bigger box office draw than Curdy because she remained in the industry. The 'iCarly' star didn't hold anything back to explain the main reason she didn't only hate but felt jealous of Ariana Grande when they shared the screen in the one-season show, 'Sam & Cat'. It was a living hell for her but not so much for one of her main co-stars: Ariana Grande. McCurdy was starting to get a lot of job opportunities but her contract and her lack of stardom prevented her from going to countless auditions.

Jennette McCurdy sat down for an interview on Wednesday (August 10) all about her new memoir and working relationship with Ariana Grande.

“Sure,” the former iCarly star responded with a chuckle. So I made that mistake repeatedly. “You literally wrote, ‘I frequently made the mistake of comparing my career to Ariana’s,'” host Juju Chang read directly from McCurdy’s book.

Ahead of the release of her memoir, "I'm Glad My Mom Died," McCurdy reflected on her yearslong friendship with Cosgrove, with whom she starred on the ...

Cosgrove tried to convince McCurdy to join her in the "iCarly" reboot "With Miranda, it's always been so easy," she writes. I just love her so much."

Jennette McCurdy recalled trying on a bikini at a wardrobe fitting for "iCarly" and feeling embarrassed. In her memoir, McCurdy said that she hated "so much of ...

"I look at myself in the dressing room mirror." But our wardrobe designer said that The Creator explicitly asked for bikinis, and so she had to at least have me try on one or two of them so he had the option." "I hate this," McCurdy wrote in her memoir." "I step out," she wrote." I want to look like a child." "I'm standing behind the curtain in the dressing room of the soundstage that we shoot the show on," McCurdy recalled in her memoir.

Jennette McCurdy, who has written memoir titled 'Im Glad My Mom Died", wants her ex-co-star Ariana Grande to read it. In it, she has revealed her bad ...

It broke her and she couldn’t take it anymore. The "iClary" star was applauded for being a good sport, but the entire incident made her resent that. She wished to leave the entertainment industry post her mother’s death. The actor reveals that she had a complicated relationship with her mother. Ariana Grandeto read her new memoir, 'I’m Glad My Mom Died'. The title of her memoir ‘I’m Glad My Mom Died" comes off a little strong, while Jennette mentions that she is genuinely glad. Jennette mentions that growing up in the public eye was quite difficult as one’s reality becomes invalidated and goes unacknowledged.

This article discusses sensitive topics such as child abuse and eating disorders. Jennette McCurdy was an omnipresent figure in my childhood. At school, my ...

I think that it was important to my growth and also to my identity to step away from it for a while, and at the time I thought permanently. Let me just say first and foremost, beyond all of the headlines, I think I wrote a great book and I hope people focus on that aspect of it. Although, now it is not lost on me the irony that my character loved eating so much and I was struggling with eating disorders. I completely stepped away from acting when I was 24, which I talk about in the book and why that was so important to me at the time for it to be a very definitive action. I wanted to make sure that I didn't go that far, so I didn't wanna be jumping in the air, flinging confetti like, “Haha, I'm glad my mom died,” because that's frankly just untruthful to my experience. I knew I wanted to be holding an urn with confetti coming out, because to me that's finding the celebration in the trauma, […] but on top of that, my expression was really important because […] this is where skirting the line between dark humor being flippant comes in. And yes, it was intentional that my mom's favorite color was pink, so I wanted there to be pink on it. So it's important for me to find the story and the entertainment in my life, as opposed to just oversharing. Therapy for me is my place for oversharing, and I think that's an important part of it. I think writing about all my childhood, adolescent experiences from my point of view now would do a disservice to who I was at the time. I expected to get a lot of pushback on just my voice, which is that I try to ignite the more tragic life events that I've experienced with humor and levity. “Child stardom is a trap,” McCurdy declares in her debut book, I’m Glad My Mom Died. The coming-of-age memoir recounts her nonconsensual journey of becoming a child actor, and the eating disorders and alcohol dependency that followed.

In "I'm Glad My Mom Died," McCurdy says her mom taught her anorexic behaviors like calorie restriction and weekly weigh-ins. She later became bulimic.

When her mother died, McCurdy said she developed bulimia and couldn't stop bingeing and purging. She also wrote that if Debra were still alive, she believes she'd support the bulimia McCurdy developed following her death. Debra would also cry while holding McCurdy and tell her she wanted her to stay physically small and young. This led a young McCurdy to think, "If I start to grow up, Mom won't love me as much," and feel guilty at every sign of normal growth, like developing breasts and getting taller. Jennette McCurdy, the award-winning actress known for her role as Sam in Nickelodeon's "iCarly," says her mother taught her how to be anorexic starting at age 11. "She was telling her, 'In order for you to be special to me, you have to perform in the right way.